The worst thing is when you’re sitting here and you can’t do anything and you have no idea what’s going on with someone else and you wish you were there instead of here because you just want to spend time with them and figure things out but you can’t because your not there and the person doesn’t respond to your texts or really anything so you end up sitting here thinking well is this all my fault when you don’t know and you just hope that they aren’t mad at you but at the same time you can’t over think stuff even though you are overthinking stuff but you can’t so you try to take your mind off of things but that person has a key to your heart so they pretty much control your feelings which is completely childish but at the same time its true so you sit here and wonder what they could be doing but at the same time you can’t because you don’t wanna seem like your too attached but you don’t know if your too attached because it could be that your just high on being around that person so you want to be around them but you can’t because your somewhere else and they aren’t responding and I don’t know what to do anymore because my heart is telling me one thing but my brain is telling me another but people always have said listen to your heart but my heart has been wrong so much that I know I can’t go down that same road anymore but at the same time I want to because I’m addicted to that path but I know it’s not going to work out if I go down that path so I have to listen to my brain because it keeps me in check and all of this nonsense is because I don’t know what I want but at the same time I know what I want but I never get what I want so I want to know if she’s actually mad at me or not but I can’t text her for awhile because then it’ll look like I have a problem and I don’t think I have a problem so I just have to sit here and post everything that’s going through my head in this one post and if you have stuck through all this nonsense from above you pretty much know what’s going on my head right now and how confused I am but at the same time I’m not confused because I’m overthinking everything and I don’t want to text her because I don’t wanna seem to attached even though I’m not even though I say I am so tomorrow I’m not gonna text her just to see show that I’m not attached and hopefully on Monday things will be better and that nothing was ever wrong but I don’t know if that’s possible but we’ll have to see and figure this out later so if you actually read everything I just posted you are a champ and you know everything that’s going on in my stupid mind right now and I know it’s childish but at the same time I barely know everyone on my tumblr so I feel it’s a perfect place to let out everything that I’m thinking about right now so now I think I just have to sit here and just let things figure themselves out and try not to overthink stuff because I think that’s my biggest mistake that I make and that I should try not to think about this stuff too often but hopefully everything works out because I am a happy person even though after reading this you’ll probably think I’m not but I truly am I happy person and I hope everything works out for me and everything works out for everyone in the world and that one day people like me won’t overthink stuff anymore. Thank you.
No matter how intelligent we are. No matter how much control of the mind we have. None of that is fruitful if we don’t have have control over the heart. The heart trumps it all.
Think about it. We make the most important decisions based on the heart and we can only truly win someone by winning none other than their heart.
I think the most painful realisation comes when you find that you cannot speak your mother tongue as well as you do the language of the land where you grew up. My English is evidence of this. When something as simple as a colour, or the name of an animal in your mother tongue leaves you dumb. Yesterday I could not find the world for ‘turtle’ in Somali, only after my mother reminded me, did I recall knowing it.
We betray our mother tongues, for the languages of nations who will never fully accept us. We let the strangeness infest our mouths until we forget how to accommodate our original tongues.
— mother tongue, Farah Gabdon (via inconsistentparadigm)
As we grow older, parents become more human. We begin to see past the facade of omniscience and can trace insecurities, weaknesses… & vulnerability. But it is this vulnerability that breaks the barriers between us, and draw us together even further. And parents aren’t simply our guardians, mentors, lifesavers… but our closest friends.